happy birthday sweetheart.........:)

hi jaan..
my lively little "pataka"
i'm all charged up this time sweet..:) and you know what..i've written something to post on this day a week ago..:) it's on my mobile.. i'm going to edit and re-type it all here..:)
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but before that.. let me wish my darling sweetheart a very very very very happy happy birthday..:)
I LOVE YOU BANGARAM..:) we will celebrate many more of your birthdays to come "together"..
i just hope..:)
on your birthday........i want to tell you manyyyy things... of course i'm going to go a bit overboard with the details.. but i plan to plan even further events..:)
no matter what you say.. darling i will always love you, and i will always be there for you..:)
i'm there for you till i take my last breath (and i mean it..) you can always count on me at any and every point of our life to be there for you whatever the situation is..
i want to be there for you to avoid any such situations from arising.. you deserve the best in everything keerthana.. i may not be the best.. but i will try and try and try till the end of nothing and will make sure to provide all the wonderful things you deserve bangaram..:)


though it is very clear and also a fact that i want to spend each and every breathing moment of my life with you.. jaan the thing i cannot utter and the thing i never want to even think of is... you may not be with me physically... but my dear the only thing that seriously matters to me is your 'happiness'.. i love you and i will hunt people needed be to keep you out of worries and keep you safe and happy..
sweet like it or don't but you can't keep me out of your life.. i will keep popping into your life..
you know what??
I've even had this bizarre thought cross my mind today.. i thought if you were going to be a cardiologist after all....
I've decided i 'will' develop a weak heart wantedly. and then i could keep popping up at your desk.. how much ever i'd have to travel to get to you.. you wouldn't recognize me that day most probably.. but i will be seeing you keerthana.. i will be seeing you up-close and mind you.. i will try keep you safe and sound...as much as i can..
keerthana i'm talking rubbish.. i think it's the emotion talking..
you didn't respond to me today..
that kinda made me sad probably..
still......
i don't know
i don't know what to say jaan.. except that i love you, i want you, i want to get married to you, i want to hug you, i want to hold you.. {right now, i want to scream out loud, but that would be wildly inappropriate since i'm at home this time for your birthday sweetheart..:) holidays matched with your birthday this time..:) )
and i want to do many things jaan.. 6 or rather 7 years have passed since i've grown fond of you..:) i love you more day-by-day.. and i'm pretty happy being in love with you..:) and i cannot be more abstinent ra. i want my share of love.............
ooppssssss
that was the emotion speaking again..
now moving on to the part where i tell you what i've written for you lastt week..
it's actually what i want to share with you for the life ahead..(the life we are going to spend together of course..:) )
it says i want to share many things with you..:)
@12:37 am,, quoting from my mobile..
{ahaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh my heart just leapt.. yahoo messenger just pinged me.. i thought it was you......... damn.. it wasn't..:( somebody mentioned me on facebook..:( }
keerthana i'd love to share many things with you..
i'd love to share my clothes with you..
i'd love to share my shirt with you..
i'd love to share my bed wit you..
i'd love to share my dreams with you..
i'd love to share my memories with you..
i'd love to share my food with you..
i'd love to share my breath with you..
i;s love to share my home with you..
i'd love to share a moment with you..
i'd love to share a laugh with you..
i'd love to share a kiss wit hyou..
i'd love to share a baby with you..
i'd love to share my LIFE with you..
my dear love..
my dear keerthana..
would you care to answer me..??
will you please marry me??
i love you...
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as quoted from my mobile..:)
there are many other things apart from a bed/ a  kiss/ a baby with you jaan.. it's not that i just want..
i want allllllllllllllllllllllll of keerthana..
everything that has got anything at all to do with you..
an evening on the roof top
a trip to Switzerland
a trip to vaishno devi
a chocolate we fight for..
a moment of success..
many many things..
{i will further finish my post tomorrow....:) i'm disturbed by somebody.... sorry jaan..:) give me just a couple of minutes i can shake her off..
shook her off..:)@12:59 am}
i want to be responsible for you keerthana...
i want to spend some time in fact.. a LOT a fat lot of time with you ra..
i never get enough of you.. may be that's because i never get any of you.. but i don't know what keeps me together.. and i even have the answer for that baby.. my love/craze for you..:)
a loooooooooooong drive
a drunk night
a silly fight
a starry night
a pretty sight..
a mug of beer
a basketball cheer
{annotation added later @1:10am :: heck that was fast and out of the blues}
a day long in bed
you in my arms..
we talk
we talk
and we talk
and we doze off
we wake
we talk
we talk
we talk and we doze off again
i'm afraid i could be a boring partner..
jaan but i can promise you one thing ra..
love me back.. and you will start to see things from my side... and then swetheart.. then you will know how beautiful the talking and dozing off in each others' arms feels like..
i love you.. i 'know' it would be 'wonderful'..
i want to do all this to you keerthana.. all this and many more things ra..
i promise to you jaan.. you will never ever ever never feel lonely/alone when you're around me ra.. i will make sure of it..
it's so simple... because..
i want you more than anyone could ever expect me to most probably want..
i'm a handful and i will keep you busy jaan..:) :P
i love you
and happy birthday to my babylicious girlfriend once again..:)
i love you jaan.. take care of your health.. at-least do that as a favor to me till you get to me.. and once you come to me.. i will make sure of that.. even now. i care but... i cannot force it on you without your consent..{fact remains that even if i wanted to.. i cannot..i have no access to you :( }
jaan my emotion has again started to talk and i've managed to get out of emotional talk..
successfully..:)
talking on much matured lines..
marry me keerthana.. :D:D:D :( :D
i love you..:):):) {one more fact: this sounded more emotional than the claimed emotional quotes..[sorry..drowsy eyes+disappointed me+previously excited me after the no response scenario+ the alien disturbance => bad jokes.. :(  ]
just visited your profile on facebook just to see your 'likes' and guess what.. i've landed in a video of some flash mob your guys organised..through a 'dog' facebook page you liked (hey, i mean it, he /she is a dog.. a Labrador..).. :)
jaan i'm spoiling this blog ra.. it was beautiful all these years..
i'm too broke to let go now..
but i have to..
i will
just let me make a thing clear for you..
just because i've talked some rubbish in the beginning of today's post regarding you not being with me dors not mean that i've lost the strength to stand// courage to fight / will to live(with you)  / trust in my love..
it just means that i was just being ridiculously diplomatic..which is the same as being stupid to the peaks..


my statement and aim stands to this date and forever keerthana..
I LOVE YOU
I WANT YOU
I WANT TO GET MARRIED TO YOU..
I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU
i've cancelled my friend request and re-sent it to you on your birthday.. sense it.. my obsession for you is growing only stronger by the day..
jaan whatever i've done previously to offend you..please let go ra,,
please..
just give me one chance
one single chance and i will try to set it right for me
set it right for "us"


i'm really sorry for talking all this ra..
see??
funny i've apologized already more times than i have wished my baby bangaram a very very happy birthday..
happy birthday miss keerthana. kota. :)
i love you..
have a happy happy and beautiful life ahead..
you will get what all you wanted and you will be the best in whatever you do ra.. you will be successful in all your endeavors..:)
my best wishes are always with you and i'm always always there for you,, you don't even have to ask.. just hint it..:) or much better you just 'let me' be there for you.. let me around you,, don't keep fending me off..:)
i love you bangaram..:)
have a sound sleep..:)
have a blast tomorrow..:)
do something new..
be happy sweetheart.. that's everybody who really loves you to be..:)
(i'm not being cheeky.. it just came out like that )
take care and be safe.
happy birthday jaan..:) i'm closing my post now.. i just hope you messaged me back ra..:) i just hope.. it wouldn't have took much though,..:)
effort/time/whatever..
you are my darling..
and i love you let whatever happen..:)
i will just doze off.. thinking you haven't even logged in tonight..
(though i can check it through our common friends' post on your wall[ypu lockes your wall baby.. i cannot see everybody' post though] i prefer to let it stay as such ra. it will help me sleep..:) )
good night jaan..:) happy birthday..:)
I LOVE YOU,,
and ohh... i've bought you a card..:) i will post the pics tomorrow.. seriously jaan.. i think these stores better upgrade.. i could only find 5-6 cards which addressed a friend..!!
happy birthday sweet..:) i love you..: good night..:)
..........................................................@1:50 am............................................

happy birthday miss darling...:)

Happy happy birthday sweetheart…J I love you...JJ

I don’t know what to say ra. I’ve just come from the market @ 8:37 p.m with some sweets and I sat to write this straight away so I could paste this here.. J

So, my darling’s no more a teenager after this night… J she’s goanna become my ‘woman’ from my ‘girl’….isn’t she???

Just kidding darling…  J you’re always my ‘girl’ no matter how old you are...  You know what?? When I was going through cards for you yesterday… I came across this card that reads you’re one year older now….but you don’t need to worry about your age until people start buying you books with bigger fonts to read… :D :D :D

Ha ha ha... I thought of giving you that one. But I just thought the card had some more time to come along.

You know why I’m telling you all this…???

No it’s not to tell you I went out to buy you a card yesterday…

And of course it’s not to tell you I bought you a card yesterday. Obviously, there’s no point in telling, you’re goanna have the pic. Of the card here.

It’s because…sweetheart I’ve seen people who start feeling like they are kids no more... they need to start acing more mature… and like a lot has to be done… and like that they have the entire family’s no no, entire world’s burden on their shoulders once they cross their teenage…

It’s not like that darling, we’re still kids and we ‘can’ take things normally the way we’ve been taking all these years… we have a lot of time to learn how to take things seriously and we have really wonderful people to learn this from…

I know you’re mature enough already, J you know how to take things seriously, ‘and’ which things to take seriously… I already know I need not tell you that.

I just want you to be happy the way you have been… all these years, loving people around you… dad, mom, akka, and everybody else…J you don’t need to rush things to higher maturity levels, I’m not teaching you how to behave sweetheart… I’m just trying to help out ‘in case’ you need an advice… and I know you don’t need mine… you’re wiser than me, the world knows it…J

Hey let me tell you something… you know what’s so exiting about not being a teenager anymore???

(Just spent a couple of minutes on your facebook profile... you look really really good ra…J)

Yes, the exiting thing about not being a teenager anymore is… you get to marry when you are in your 20’s…J:P just kidding…

You know what the best part is….???

My darling gets to see her dream, her aim, being a well credited and reputed doctor… (I can bet she ‘is’ one already)… you have so many wonderful things waiting for you darling… and to get there… you ‘will’ have to be in your 20’s one day or the other.

Let your body be in your 20’s… but… let the child in you live… let the little demon in you live…J

You’re a sweetheart darling… we have a lot more life to come… we’ll have a lot of fun… we’ll (you) do all the things again we (you) used to do when we (you) were a kid… we’ll(you) shout we’ll(you) scream… we’ll break things… we’ll (you) play in rain… lots of things we’re goanna do…J[I just hope we’ll do this together…]…J ok ok, I should not be wishing for you anything…it’s your birthday and you’re the birthday baby…so, it’s only your right to wish for something…

I hope and wish that this ‘special’ part of your life has a lot in it for you…surprises…success…love…care…health… what not, everything…J you deserve all the happiness In the world ra…J

I love you ra…J

May you be blessed with all the happiness in the world…

I love you… I wish I could write your name here…

I will make sure your name is here next year around, I just feel I don’t have the right to use your name… that is the reason your name is not here…

And your name will be here on your next birthday irrespective of where our relation stands…J

See…the entire nation is celebrating my jaan’s birthday, its diwali coincidentally tomorrow. I’ve told you earlier jaan… your birthday has always been special to me in one or the other manner…J

I love you.J

Pics of stuff on your birthday…J

Your card…J

Sweets…J

Love you darling…J

I love you.

Happy birthday…

Happy diwali, take your calls but don’t wait late on them ra…J I’ve told you in my last post…J

Party hard tomorrow…

G0od night…

I love you…J

Ended @9:40 p.m.

all your cards from 2006 through 2011(right to left)...:) just thought you'd like to see...i love you darling... good night ... happy happy birthday...:):):)
pics uploaded @1:37 a.m

i miss you.

i miss you...
i'm hollow. i'm too deep i'm scared of myself...:(:( please help...

i love you.

happy birthday bangaram...my sweet little chunk of moon...!! i love you. :)

actually i must be writing this a couple of hours later but i'm too tired by yesterday's journey back to dhanbad.
first of all.
happy birthday darling.
happy birthday bangaram..!
i love you.
wish you many many more happy returns of the day.
may you be blessed with with outstanding health( no compromise here.. :) )oh!! and of course on this birthday of your's may you be blessed with enough wisdom to keep your diet and remember the fact that you will be a very very successful doc. one day any way but you even need to take care of yourself. :).
darling i wish to see you in much better health than what I've heard off people telling me about you.
pity i couldn't see you though.:)
may you be blessed with with all people you cherish..you love and you care for.
may you be blessed with with peace of mind
may you be blessed with much more success an your life which may bring you more and more happiness...


In short...
i wish you all the happiness in your life...!
keep the smile keep the spirit keep the fun in you alive...!!!
i love you for what you are.:)
i love you whatever you are.
that's not the topic now...i know.. but still i can't stop myself from saying this to you..!!
keep your health.
take care of your self..
have a very very happy life ahead and i know you will be successful in your career any way...
with or without my wishes..
but i only hope you will be mine personally ra.
i don't really believe any other person in this world will be able to take so good care of you as i can.
my fear is that you won't get the treatment you deserve ra.
you're a darling ra you're a sweet heart. you deserve all the happiness in life...you deserve every luxury..you deserve care of the highest order you deserve your own space in life apart from family and other responsibilities.
i wish you'll never feel short of these in your life.
I LOVE YOU
have a very very happy and fun-filled party tomorrow darling.
i may not be there but you're always with me..:)
i love you.
take care sweet heart.
you know something. i feel drunk because of the swing of the past 34 hr train journey and the night out i had to do in yesterday's train.
love is pouring in on you sweet heart.
i feel like never stopping writing to you...
i feel like doing this throughout the night but you inside me tells me that i should put a stop to this and go to bed posting you a happy birthday msg on your face book wall.
think i should do this since i think from the time i started this blog.
i've corrected more words than i've written:)
i'm having a terrible swing of the train and i feel someone has put my eyes on fire. hey wait 4 a sec. i've bought a birthday greeting 4 u.
i'll upload it right away.:)
just hold on for a moment.:):)

oh and the sweets i'm going to distribute today in my hostel..:)

yummy pulla reddy kaju roll on your birthday bangaram..!!
did not bring it particularly to distribute today, actually brought it from home for friends here.
mom sent them.
you know what darling??
every birthday of yours has been special to me today even the delivery of our car has been taken on this very day 3 years ago..:)
you mom(in-law of course) sent them this time around to distribute here...and i'm doing this tonight..!!:)
love you sweet.
swings increased to terrible heights now...!!!
don't think i can sit any more..
waiting for my darling's birthday even more enthusiastically than her( i'm being too exaggerated...that can't be..can it??).
love you darling..
wish you a very very happy birthday bangaram..!!
i have to wait on your facebook profile now.
love you jaanu.
happy birthday once again.:):)














“Love that we cannot have lasts the longest, is the strongest, and hurts the deepest.”
but in my case i love you so much that you can never hurt me whatever you do.!!!!
i love you too much to be annoyed, hurt, or angry with you...:)
good night darling.
take your phone calls but don't wait too much on them.
sleep at-least before 1-30 am.:)
O.M.G i don't even have the sense of what i'm writing.
i'm not in a state to understand..!!
gotta check my post myself tomorrow..:):)
love you more.
happy birthday once again.
good night.:)